Excerpt from New Light Shine
SETTING: A bedroom
CHARACTER: OSCAR, 30s, a former accountant, prone to bouts of sudden hysteria.
OSCAR has just moved to a new, small town with his girlfriend, Anna. He speaks to Anna as he moves amongst the boxes.
Because you get to a certain age don’t you? And when that day comes, maybe it is the day that your girlfriend…although I hate that word. Makes me think of Chelsea Livingsworth who let me feel her breasts because she ‘trusted me’ and was this close to sucking me off until her mother read her diary and sent her to live with her grandmother. That’s a girlfriend.
So not one’s girlfriend, one’s…partner? No. Too clean. Lover?… I’d like to call you my lover, Anna. I’d like that a lot because you are the greatest person in the world to fuck but I get the feeling that if I started dropping the ‘L’ word into conversation, your skin would blush all over and you would tell company that I am over-medicating myself.
God. Are we going to have any company here? Are we going to have anything? Anything that… Anything at all? Anything that I might learn to love and consider my own? Anything that I will one day sit back and smile at nothing and mutter in a quiet, lovely tone that I am lucky. I am just so lucky that I live here, this place, because of…fill in the blank. Perhaps they make their own jam? Gooseberry, or sweet, sweet marmalade. Home. The feeling of home. You know what I’m talking about? Something that tastes like home. Like you, Anna. Anna, Anna, Anna. Where have you taken me? Continue reading